Okay. So there's this girl who (I guess) loved or maybe still loves my boyfriend. I don't like her, of course. How could I? Lol. I know they've been close to each other back then. My boyfriend and I were in fourth year high while she was on her third year. Ronald (my boyfriend) and I were still not "on" during those times when this girl and Ronald are making
chenes to each other. We're just texting and all. Yes, he's courting me through text. Nothing's wrong with that, right? And besides, Ronald and I already had a relationship when we were in second year. We're just trying if things would be better this time.
Back to the story, this girl and Ronald are also having some kind of mutual understanding during that time when Ronald and I are also having one. He didn't tell me about this, about her, anything. So on the 24th of July, I said "yes" to him, knowing that I'm the only girl for him. I was happy, yes. Because I knew nothing. Things were fine until I knew about their little secret. That was 7th of September. We were in school. I was using my computer. I'm on tumblr where I happened to discover whatever is going on between the two of them. I happened to jump on this girl's blog and read everything, directly from her. At first I was confused because she mentioned no name on her blog. But I know, she's talking about him on all her posts. I can't be wrong. I told my friends about it and asked them to read her blog. And I was right, this btch and Ronald are having some dirty relationship. I told Ronald about it. He said that he does not know anything. Fck.
Hindi ako tanga. So I broke up with him. Fairy tale is over, little girl.
He was sorry and kept telling me that he was not making a fool out of me. His lines were like, they're just friends, he's not lying and whatsoever. He wanted me back. But I was hurt and said that I needed some time. Until we had our "little field trip" (lol). He was on our section's jeep because theirs was already full. We had spent some time together. I don't know what happened, but all of the pain seemed to vanish during that time. We were fine. Back as friends. I tried to forget all that had happened and look forward to what is in the present.
We started texting each other again (though it was never lost, really). He asked for another chance so I gave in. He showed me he was serious this time. He waits for me every time I'll have to go home late. He showed his efforts just to have me back. After almost two months, I said "yes" again. That was November 11, 2011, right after DSPC. A perfect date, isn't it?
Everything went fine. We spent time together. I'm happy because we're legal on both sides. One month has passed, and then two, three, four, five. Everything was perfect. Not until the 23rd of April. The day when we almost broke up again. I was browsing tumblr that night. I was reading this girl's blog (the other blog that she made). There's this one long post that really caught me. It was about their story (Ronald and her). How they became close and all. I was crying the whole time while I was reading it. Good thing I knew about this blog. Actually, she already changed the original url of her blog because maybe she found out that I already knew about it. But because I'm good, I still knew about her blog, the new url of her blog. >:)
So that night, I told Ronald what I have read. And as expected, he just kept on denying what is already obvious. I told him that she had his name mentioned on the post with their pictures together. I was really about to break up with him until this girl messaged me on facebook telling me that everything was not real. That everything was just a joke.
Is this enough to believe that nothing's wrong? I'm not dumb. If everything was just a joke, they should have told me about that "blog". If that was a joke, what's the sense of hiding it from me? They should have showed me that in the first place. But they didn't. Kung hindi ko pa aksidenteng nalaman ang tungkol sa blog na yun, siguro walang ganito na sasabihin mong joke lang lahat. Kasi alam mo sa sarili mong hindi joke yun. Instead, they hid it from me so I wouldn't know what is happening between them. Right?
But we did not break up. The next day, during the practice, I didn't talk to him. I didn't look at him. I didn't reply to his messages. I needed time to think if I should continue this relationship or not. He's always beside me saying sorry and all. He kept on explaining. I didn't say a word. He was just there begging for forgiveness. He was crying that time. I hate it because that's my weakness. I don't want seeing him crying. Every time he cries, it seems that nothing went wrong. All the pain is out. I forgave him. Yes, I was such a fool when I did that. But what can I do? I love him so much and I don't want to leave him. I loved him since first year, I don't want to throw all that away. I maybe wrong in doing that, but when you truly love someone, you'll risk it. Whatever will happen, will be. God won't leave me. He's my witness and I know He'll save me if anything goes wrong.
We're already on for 10 months and 6 days now, and I'm hoping that these numbers will still grow larger and larger until we cannot count them anymore. If he's really the one for me, great. But if he's not, oh I hope he's the one. :)
I love him so much and God knows that. :))))
